Thursday, September 3, 2009

just a quick ramble between friends

why cant Christians be angry?
this is a question which im asking because, they wont let us be angry
"turn the other cheek they say, walk in love they say, Jesus died for them they say..."
well i say why cant i get pissed off?
not getting angry for angrys sake, but if it has a legit reason
righteous anger should be the anger im looking for
i know this guy, he totally turned his back on God, became gay, agnostic, the whole deal
now everyone is telling me
we just have to show him love
that's what Jesus would do
do you know what i want to do
i want to yell at him
right up in his grill
have some of my spit accidentally splatter on his face
i want to tell him in my outdoor voice
why are you being so stupid?
by golly you know once i say that, its all done
ill be the towns rebuke
i want to go up to the kid who loves God with all his heart
loves his family
great job in school
model christian
has a porn addiction
i want to go in this kids room
destroy his computer
have one of those force interventions
be like dude
why are you being so stupid
i want to go to this woman
this alcoholic of a woman
whose kids are left to defend for themselves
as she comes home from work and drinks her joys in
these kids who walk to church every week
i want to pick them up
drop them off at there house
and walk right into this woman's face
and be like
why are you being so stupid?
i want to yell the hell right out of her
why cant i do this just yet?
is it because im to sensitive of a guy i cant just get angry and spit out the turn or burn rhyme?
after sitting and pondering and wondering why
a dark reality drew upon me
how can i help these sinners with there sins
when i cant keep myself pure and holy
now sin is sin no matter how you read it
what you declare just is sick to God
so how can i address these people and help them through there ordeals when i just controlled and tamed my demons
some hypocrite am i
which in my opinion is the worst sin
a person wearing a mask of holiness and righteousness but inside are the scars of there perversions and lies
why is it so hard to be set apart?
romans 6:12-13.Therefore do not let sin reign in your mortal body, that you should obey it in its lusts. And do not present your members as instruments of unrighteousness to sin, but present yourselves to God as being alive from the dead, and your members as instruments of righteousness to God.
how can i present myself to God at this state?
how can i become consecrated?
consecrated-latin consecrātus-to make or declare sacred; set apart or dedicate to the service of a deity
Seth:but seriously, how can one person become holy?
and if you tell me its just by reading the word and praying i will get angry
God:read my word, and pray to me, ask My spirit to come and fill you
can it really be that easy?
is it really that easy?
if it was that easy then, then yeah
thats how i felt when i first got that answer
i felt angry
cause i felt the time i gave God wasn't good enough
those moments in the word, praying to Him wasn't good enough
then i really thought about it
and it was like, i ONLY gave him a few moments a week, and it really wasn't good enough
my all wasn't good enough because i wasn't giving it
He gave me, what i gave Him
and thats why i cant yell at some pastor whose having an affair because my demons had more of say over my life then God did
when God isn't in full control of your life then you are, and when God isn't in control that means the devil is
and its a harsh pill to swallow but i made these decisions
now dont get me wrong, im not a perverted, alcoholic, cheat
im just not where im supposed to be
2 corinthians 3:18.But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as by the Spirit of the Lord.
i am to look like Christ
to be like Him
is it easy as read and pray?
but its also about death and life
i am to consume my whole being into the atmosphere of God